But I don’t need this blog any more. I’m 135 pounds and 5’4. I’m at a healthy weight. And I’m going to stop living my life obsessing over my body. Because it’s a very insignificant part of who I am as a person and it should not control whether I have a good day or a bad day, whether I go to bed crying or hungry, and whether or not I can look at myself in the mirror and like what I see. This blog was not the beginning of my issues with my weight and self-esteem, but it pulled me in deeper and it’s kept me stuck in a horrible cycle of dieting, failing, hating myself, and then repeating the process. I don’t care what anyone says, spending even ten minutes a day scrolling through these pictures of other women and their bodies does no service to us, except making us feel inferior, making us wish we were someone else. But you’re you. And I’ve heard this thousands of times from family, friends, fitblrs, and counselors, but it’s finally sunk in. I’m okay with me. All of me. At least for today. And that’s all I could have ever hoped for.
I hope it’s not my scale just being weird or water weight or something. On a different note, I bought some lingerie to wear on Valentine’s Day and it did not look the way I was hoping it would. The sizes were weird, and each set (there were three) either made my boobs look like a let down or my butt look dumpy. One thing I bought was so complicated to put on, I just gave up trying. I at least got two cute pairs of underwear out of the deal, and it didn’t make me feel down about myself. My body’s not the problem. Thinking I could score some major sexy points with cheap-o lingerie was.
And it’s a student teaching position! asdagsdjahgsajdskajsd. I’m so excited! I’ve gotten a little off track with my weight-loss, but I think the routine of school will really help. My goal for today was 135, but I’m at 138. At least I’m in the 130s!
Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio .
“To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 42 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I’ve ever written.
My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:
1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short – enjoy it..
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.
7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.
8. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
9. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
10. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
11. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
12. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
13. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it…
14 Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
15. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful. Clutter weighs you down in many ways.
16. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
17. It’s never too late to be happy. But it’s all up to you and no one else.
18. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
19. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
20. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
21. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
22. The most important sex organ is the brain.
23. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
24. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’
25. Always choose life.
26. Forgive but don’t forget.
27. What other people think of you is none of your business.
28. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
29. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
30. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does..
31. Believe in miracles.
32. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
33. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
34. Your children get only one childhood.
35. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
36. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
37. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
38. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have not what you need.
39. The best is yet to come…
40. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
42. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”
bobby fucking hill
this is why the monks thought he was a reincarnation of a buddha
BOBBY HILL IS BODY POSITIVE